My Journey to Islam

My Journey to Islam

December 22, 2025 - Grateful for Guidance

As the year begins to slow and fold into itself, my heart feels especially grateful for guidance. Not just guidance in belief, but guidance in direction—how Allah gently steers the soul even when it doesn’t realize it’s being led. When I look back, I can see moments that once felt random now glowing with purpose. Paths I didn’t choose. Doors that closed without explanation. Questions that lingered longer than I wanted. All of it was guidance unfolding quietly.

I’m learning that guidance is one of Allah’s most intimate gifts. He doesn’t force it upon the heart; He invites it. He places signs gently along the way—through people, through verses, through moments of deep unrest that eventually push us toward truth. Guidance doesn’t always arrive as certainty. Sometimes it comes as restlessness, as longing, as a feeling that something more is waiting.

There were times I thought I had lost my way, when confusion felt overwhelming. But even then, Allah was guiding me—through discomfort, through reflection, through the slow awakening of the heart. I see now that guidance is not always clarity; sometimes it is protection, sometimes redirection, sometimes patience disguised as waiting.

What humbles me most is realizing that guidance is not something I earned. It was mercy. Allah chose to open my heart, to soften it, to allow light to enter where doubt once lived. And for that, gratitude feels too small a word—but it is where I begin.

“Allah guides to His light whom He wills.”
— Qur’an 24:35

This verse rests gently within me. It reminds me that guidance is not accidental—it is intentional, personal, and deeply loving. My journey continues with this awareness: to be guided is to be chosen, and to be chosen is a responsibility I carry with humility, gratitude, and care.

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December 15, 2025 - Ikhlas—sincerity

These days, my heart has been quietly circling the idea of ikhlas—sincerity. It is one of the most delicate qualities in faith, something unseen by people but fully known to Allah. Ikhlas asks me to examine not just what I do, but why I do it. To peel away the layers of ego, expectation, and habit until only truth remains.

I’m realizing that sincerity is a lifelong purification. It requires constant returning, constant checking of the heart. There are moments when I catch myself performing an act of worship out of routine, or speaking kindly because it is expected, not because it rises from a genuine place. Yet ikhlas doesn’t shame me—it invites me to realign. To pause and whisper, “Ya Allah, make this for You.”

What humbles me most is how freeing sincerity feels. When I act for Allah alone, I stop worrying about how others perceive me. I stop seeking validation. My actions feel lighter, clearer, more meaningful. Suddenly, even the smallest deeds—like a quiet prayer, a hidden act of charity, or a private moment of remembrance—carry a weight that only Allah measures.

But ikhlas also asks for courage. It asks me to confront parts of myself I sometimes avoid—the desire to be praised, the fear of being unnoticed, the longing to be understood. Bringing these to Allah is an act of honesty, a way of saying, “Purify me. Make me sincere.”

“And they were not commanded except to
worship Allah, being sincere to Him in religion…”
— Qur’an 98:5

This verse reminds me that sincerity is not an extra quality—it is the foundation. My journey continues with this intention: to thrive in private just as I strive in public, to purify my heart before polishing my actions, and to let every step—seen or unseen—be for Allah alone.

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December 8, 2025 - Tawbah—the gentle, transformative act of returning to Allah

Lately, my heart has been leaning toward the reflection of tawbah—the gentle, transformative act of returning to Allah. Not just repentance from a mistake, but the entire movement of the soul as it turns back to its Lord. Tawbah is not merely saying “I’m sorry”; it is rediscovering the path when I’ve wandered too far, reclaiming the closeness I thought I lost, and realizing that Allah never closed the door to begin with.

There are moments I look back on and feel a quiet ache—things I wish I had done differently, words I wish I had left unsaid, prayers I wish I had made sooner. But Islam has taught me that regret can be a doorway if I let it guide me back to Allah. Tawbah takes the weight of yesterday and reshapes it into a step toward tomorrow.

What strikes me most is how Allah describes Himself as At-Tawwab—the One who constantly accepts repentance. Not sometimes, not reluctantly, but constantly. That alone fills me with a tenderness I can hardly put into words. Even when I hesitate to return, even when I feel unworthy, Allah waits with mercy that doesn’t waver.

I’ve come to see tawbah not as a moment of shame, but as an act of love. The heart cracks open, tears fall, and somehow—through a process only Allah can create—those cracks become the very places where light enters.

“And turn to Allah in repentance, all of you, O believers, that you might succeed.”
— Qur’an 24:31

This verse reassures me that repenting is not a sign of failure—it is a step toward success, toward growth, toward becoming someone softer, truer, and closer to Allah. My journey continues with this realization: tawbah is not the end of the path—it is the beginning of it, again and again.

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December 1, 2025 - Tadabbur—the inward contemplation that comes from truly sitting with the Qur’an

As this new month begins, I find myself reflecting on tadabbur—the inward contemplation that comes from truly sitting with the Qur’an. Not just reading the words, but letting them breathe inside me, letting them touch the places that everyday life often overlooks. Tadabbur is the moment when a verse suddenly feels personal, when a familiar ayah reveals a new shade of meaning, when the Qur’an stops being text and becomes nourishment.

There are days when my mind is restless, when the world feels scattered and loud. Yet the moment I open the Qur’an with the intention to understand—even a little—I feel a shift. A softening. A quieting. As if Allah is whispering, “Slow down. Come back to Me.”

It amazes me how a single verse can meet me differently depending on my state. When I’m anxious, it comforts. When I’m distracted, it redirects. When I’m hopeful, it lifts me even higher. The Qur’an doesn’t change—but I do. And in that transformation, there is mercy.

I’m learning that tadabbur isn’t about mastering knowledge. It’s about letting the Qur’an shape the heart—one verse, one pause, one reflection at a time. Even when I understand only a little, that little carries light. Even when the meaning feels distant, its presence still purifies.

“Do they not reflect upon the Qur’an, or are there locks upon their hearts?”
— Qur’an 47:24

This verse reminds me that the Qur’an is not meant to be rushed through or overlooked. It is meant to be opened, entered, and allowed to unlock what has grown closed inside me. My journey continues with this intention: to approach the Qur’an not only with my eyes, but with my heart.

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November 24, 2025 - Sakinah—that gentle, divine tranquility Allah places within the believer

This week, my heart has been resting in the thought of sakinah—that gentle, divine tranquility Allah places within the believer. It isn’t the kind of peace that comes from perfect circumstances or quiet surroundings. Sakinah is deeper. It settles inside even when life is loud. It softens the heart even when the world feels rough.

I’ve learned that sakinah doesn’t always arrive suddenly. Sometimes it comes like dawn—slow, subtle, almost unnoticed until a soft glow fills the spaces where fear once lived. Other times, it descends all at once, right after a prayer whispered through tears, reminding me that Allah hears even the trembling parts of my soul.

There are moments when I still feel overwhelmed, when my thoughts try to run ahead of me. But when I pause, breathe, and return to Allah—even if only with a single quiet subhanAllah—I feel that tranquility brushing against my heart. A reassurance that says, “You are held. You are seen. You are safe with Me.”

What I love most about sakinah is that it isn’t earned—it’s gifted. A sign of Allah’s nearness, His love, His mercy. Even when I fall short, even when I am tired, sakinah reminds me that peace isn’t found by solving everything—it’s found by surrendering to the One who already has everything in His hands.

“He it is who sent down tranquility into the hearts of the believers so that they may increase in faith along with their faith.”
— Qur’an 48:4

This verse feels like a promise—that peace is never far from the believer who seeks Allah. My journey continues with this comfort: sakinah is not the absence of hardship, but the presence of Allah within it.

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November 17, 2025 - Longing for Closeness to Allah

There are days when I feel a quiet ache in my chest—an ache not born of sadness, but of yearning. It’s the longing for closeness to Allah, the deep pull of the soul toward its Source. No matter how far I wander, how distracted I become, there’s something in me that always wants to return.

This longing has taught me that love for Allah isn’t always constant ease or clarity—it’s the gentle ache that keeps me searching, praying, remembering. It’s in the moments of stillness before Fajr, when the world is silent and my heart whispers, “Ya Allah, I miss You.” That longing itself is mercy; it’s a sign that He hasn’t let me forget Him.

The truth is, I don’t always feel spiritually strong. There are times when my prayers feel dry, when my focus fades. But even in that emptiness, I know He is near. Sometimes, the distance I feel is not distance at all—it’s an invitation. A call to seek Him more deeply, to polish my heart, to remember that nearness is not measured by emotion, but by sincerity.

“And when My servants ask you concerning Me—indeed, I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me.”
— Qur’an 2:186

This verse quiets every doubt. It reminds me that closeness to Allah is never lost; it only waits to be felt again. My journey continues with this truth: the longing to be near Him is nearness itself—a sign of a heart still alive, still reaching, still loved.

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November 10, 2025 - Rajaʾ—hope in Allah

This week, I’ve been reflecting on rajaʾ—hope in Allah. Not the fragile kind that depends on outcomes, but the quiet, steady hope that rests in His mercy. Rajaʾ is what keeps the heart alive when everything else feels uncertain. It’s the conviction that no matter how lost I may feel, Allah’s mercy is always greater than my mistakes, and His door is never closed.

There are times when my prayers feel heavy, when I wonder if they rise past the ceiling. But rajaʾ teaches me that every whisper is heard, every tear is seen, and every longing that carries sincerity reaches the One who knows me better than I know myself. Hope isn’t naïve—it’s faith choosing light even when surrounded by darkness.

I’ve come to realize that despair is not humility—it’s forgetfulness. To lose hope in Allah’s mercy is to forget who He is: Ar-Rahman, Ar-Raheem, Al-Ghaffar. His mercy has no limits, and His forgiveness has no fatigue. Rajaʾ doesn’t ignore my flaws—it meets them with the certainty that Allah can turn them into reasons to return to Him.

“Say, ‘O My servants who have transgressed against themselves, do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Truly, it is He who is the Most Forgiving, Most Merciful.’”
— Qur’an 39:53

This verse is a promise that never grows old. It reminds me that no sin is too great, no heart too far, no darkness too thick for Allah’s light to reach. My journey continues with this comfort: hope is not denial—it is remembering that Allah’s mercy always outweighs my fear.

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November 3, 2025 -Rida—contentment with the decree of Allah

This week, my heart has been drawn to rida—contentment with the decree of Allah. It is one of the most delicate and liberating qualities of faith. Rida does not mean denying pain or pretending that hardship feels easy—it means learning to find peace within it, knowing that every trial carries wisdom, every delay hides mercy, and every loss leads closer to Him.

There was a time when I thought faith meant being unshaken, but now I see that rida allows me to tremble and still trust. It invites me to stop asking, “Why me?” and instead ask, “What is Allah teaching me through this?” That shift changes everything. It turns frustration into reflection, and sorrow into surrender.

Some days, rida feels effortless—a breeze of calm that flows naturally through my heart. Other days, it takes work. I have to remind myself again and again that what is written for me was never meant to harm me. Allah’s decree isn’t random—it’s intentional, even when I can’t see the reason behind it yet.

“Perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah knows, while you know not.”
— Qur’an 2:216

This verse always humbles me. It reminds me that my limited sight cannot grasp the fullness of Allah’s plan. To live with rida is to live with trust—to open my hands, release control, and say with the heart, “Whatever You choose for me, Ya Allah, I accept.”

My journey continues with this quiet acceptance: peace does not come from what I control—it comes from Who I trust.

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October 27, 2025 - Sadaqah—generosity

This week, I’ve been reflecting on sadaqah—generosity. Not just the act of giving wealth, but the broader spirit of giving that Islam inspires. Generosity in time, in kindness, in forgiveness, in presence. I’ve come to realize that sadaqah is less about what I give and more about the state of my heart when I give it.

True generosity, I’m learning, doesn’t deplete—it multiplies. Every time I give sincerely, I feel lighter, as if a part of my heart expands to make room for peace. And when I withhold, I notice how quickly that same heart feels tight, burdened by attachment. Giving is not loss—it’s release. It’s trusting that Allah replaces every sacrifice with something better, something unseen.

There have been moments when I hesitated to give—worried I might not have enough. But then I remember that every blessing I hold was a gift from Allah to begin with. When I give, I’m not losing; I’m returning a portion of what was never truly mine.

“The example of those who spend their wealth in the way of Allah is like a seed [of grain] that sprouts seven ears; in every ear is a hundred grains. And Allah multiplies for whom He wills.”
— Qur’an 2:261

This verse always humbles me. It reminds me that Allah’s generosity knows no limits—and that when I give for His sake, I’m not measuring what leaves my hand, but what grows in my heart. My journey continues with this truth: generosity isn’t just an action—it’s worship in motion, a quiet reflection of the Giver Himself.

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October 20, 2025 - Tawakkul—trust

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on tawakkul—trust in Allah. It’s one of the most freeing forms of faith, yet one of the hardest to truly live. Tawakkul asks me to release the illusion of control, to do my part with sincerity, and then to hand the outcome completely to Allah. It is both surrender and strength—a deep breath after struggle, a quiet “Ya Allah, I leave it to You.”

There was a time when uncertainty filled me with fear. I wanted every answer, every assurance before taking a step. But life rarely works that way. Now I see that tawakkul doesn’t mean standing still—it means walking forward with trust, even when the path is dimly lit. It’s the courage to move, knowing that Allah guides every step.

What’s beautiful about tawakkul is how it changes the heart. It takes the sharp edges of worry and softens them into calm. It replaces anxiety with serenity. It whispers that nothing written for me will ever miss me, and nothing meant to pass me will ever reach me. That truth alone brings peace unlike anything else.

“And whoever relies upon Allah—then He is sufficient for him.”
— Qur’an 65:3

This verse feels like an embrace. It reminds me that reliance on Allah isn’t weakness—it’s the strongest foundation I can stand upon. My journey continues with this faith: I will plan, I will strive, I will trust—and I will rest in the care of the One who never fails His servants.

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October 13, 2025 - Sabr - patience

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on sabr—patience. Not the passive kind that waits for time to pass, but the quiet strength that holds the heart steady through trials. Sabr is not just endurance—it’s trust in motion. It’s the faith that whispers, “This moment, too, was written for me with wisdom.”

There are days when patience feels heavy, almost impossible. When prayers seem unanswered, or when the path feels longer than I expected. But Islam has taught me that patience isn’t simply waiting—it’s how I wait. It’s the grace I bring to uncertainty, the calm I strive to keep when everything feels unstable, the reminder that Allah’s timing never fails.

I’ve come to see sabr as an act of worship—one that happens not in silence, but in the steady rhythm of perseverance. It’s in the prayers I keep making, the hope I keep choosing, and the peace I keep searching for, even when it hides behind hardship.

“Indeed, Allah is with the patient.”
— Qur’an 2:153

This verse anchors me. It reminds me that sabr isn’t endured alone. Allah’s presence is closest when my strength feels weakest. My journey continues with this quiet realization: patience is not waiting for ease—it is walking with faith until ease finds me.

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October 6, 2025 - Rahma - mercy

This week, I’ve been reflecting on rahma—mercy. It surrounds us more than we realize, in the quiet ways Allah protects, forgives, and sustains us. I think of the countless moments I’ve faltered, yet found ease instead of punishment, guidance instead of abandonment. That is mercy in action—a reminder that Allah’s compassion always outweighs His wrath.

What moves me most is that mercy isn’t only something I receive—it’s something I’m called to live by. Every time I choose kindness over anger, every time I forgive when I could hold a grudge, every time I soften my words instead of sharpening them, I reflect a fraction of the mercy that Allah pours into this world.

Still, it’s not always easy. Mercy requires strength—the strength to let go, the strength to empathize, the strength to remember that every person is a soul in need of Allah just like me. But I’ve noticed that when I practice mercy, I feel lighter, freer, closer to Allah.

“And My Mercy encompasses all things.”
— Qur’an 7:156

This verse reminds me that mercy is the very fabric of existence. It comforts me when I fall short, and it challenges me to extend that same mercy to others. My journey continues with this hope: that I may always walk gently, remembering that the One who shows me mercy daily asks me to carry it forward.

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September 29, 2025 - Ihsan—excellence in worship and in living

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on ihsan—excellence in worship and in living. The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) described ihsan as “to worship Allah as if you see Him, and if you cannot see Him, then know that He sees you.” It’s a reminder that faith isn’t just about performing the basics, but about striving to bring beauty, sincerity, and depth into everything I do.

I realize now that ihsan is not about perfection—it’s about presence. It’s about turning an ordinary prayer into a conversation with Allah, turning an everyday task into an offering of sincerity, turning even small acts of kindness into sacred reflections of faith.

Some days, I struggle. My mind drifts in prayer, or my actions feel routine. But ihsan calls me back, not with harshness, but with gentleness. It whispers: Do this as if Allah is before you. Do this as if it matters eternally. That thought shifts everything.

“Indeed, Allah loves those who rely upon Him.”
— Qur’an 3:159

This verse reminds me that excellence is not about control, but about reliance. When I bring my best, with sincerity, Allah perfects what I cannot. My role is to show up with devotion; His mercy completes the rest.

My journey continues with this truth: ihsan transforms the smallest deeds into something eternal when done with love for Allah.

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September 22, 2025 - Tawaduʿ—Humility

This week, I’ve been drawn to the idea of tawaduʿ—humility. It’s easy to mistake humility for weakness, but I’ve come to see it as one of the greatest strengths. To be humble is not to think less of myself—it’s to recognize who I am before Allah: small, dependent, yet loved by the One who created me.

Humility has softened the way I walk through the world. It reminds me that no blessing I hold is truly mine—it is entrusted to me. It reminds me that no matter how much I learn, there will always be knowledge I don’t know. And it reminds me that no matter how much I strive, it is Allah’s mercy, not my effort alone, that lifts me.

Practicing humility also reshapes my relationships. When I try to listen more than I speak, to forgive rather than insist on being right, to see others as equal souls on their own journeys, I feel a peace that pride never gave me. Pride isolates—but humility connects.

“And do not walk upon the earth exultantly. Indeed, you will never tear the earth [apart], and you will never reach the mountains in height.”
— Qur’an 17:37

This verse humbles me. It reminds me that arrogance is misplaced—that no matter how high we stand in our own eyes, we are still small before Allah. True honor doesn’t come from lifting ourselves above others, but from lowering ourselves in sincerity to the One who elevates hearts.

My journey continues with this reminder: humility is not about being unseen—it’s about being sincere.

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September 15, 2025 - Shukr - Gratitude

Lately, I’ve been reflecting on shukr—gratitude. It’s easy to be thankful when blessings are obvious, but the real challenge is recognizing the hidden gifts: the delay that protected me, the loss that taught me, the silence that invited me to listen more deeply. Gratitude is not just about counting what I have—it’s about trusting that even what I don’t have is written with mercy.

I’ve noticed that when I practice gratitude, my heart feels lighter. Even small acts—saying alhamdulillah for the taste of water, the ease of breath, the comfort of a safe night’s rest—become like little lanterns, illuminating the path of faith. Gratitude turns ordinary moments into worship.

Still, I sometimes forget. I slip into longing for what I don’t yet hold. But in those moments, I remind myself that Allah doesn’t ask me to have everything—He asks me to recognize that everything I do have comes from Him. Gratitude isn’t the absence of longing—it’s the presence of trust.

“If you are grateful, I will surely increase you [in favor]; but if you deny, indeed, My punishment is severe.”
— Qur’an 14:7

This verse teaches me that gratitude is not only a reflection of faith—it is a key to abundance. The more I notice Allah’s blessings, the more He opens my eyes to see them. Gratitude doesn’t change what I own—it changes how I live.

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September 8, 2025 - The Weight of Patience

This week, I’ve been thinking about the weight of patience. It’s not always dramatic or heroic—sometimes it’s simply the decision to hold steady when the heart wants to rush, to stay grounded when the mind wants to wander. Patience has become, for me, a form of quiet courage: trusting that Allah’s timing is not late, not early, but perfect.

There are days when waiting feels heavy, when unanswered prayers linger on my tongue, and when my plans don’t unfold the way I imagined. Yet, in those very moments, I sense that patience is not an absence of action—it is an act of faith. It’s me telling myself: Allah has written this moment with care. Be still, and trust Him.

Patience has also softened the way I see others. Instead of rushing to judgment, I remind myself that everyone is carrying their own unseen trials. Just as Allah is patient with me, so I must try to be patient with others.

“And be patient, for indeed, Allah does not allow to be lost the reward of those who do good.”
— Qur’an 11:115

This verse reminds me that patience is never wasted. Every time I hold back frustration, every time I breathe through difficulty, every time I wait with trust—it is all seen, all recorded, and all rewarded. My journey continues with this in my heart: patience is not passive—it is worship.

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September 1, 2025 - A Gentle Anchor

Faith, for me, is often discovered in the quiet beginnings of a new month. It feels like a reset, a fresh chance to realign my heart with Allah. Today I am reminded that Islam is not about grand, unreachable leaps—it is about steady steps, taken with sincerity. Even when my pace is slow, every effort toward Allah is seen, remembered, and cherished by Him.

One of the most comforting truths I’ve learned is that even small acts, done with love for Allah, carry immense weight. A short prayer whispered while walking, a moment of gratitude before sleeping, a gentle word to someone who needed kindness—these are not forgotten. They are all threads in the fabric of faith, weaving strength into my journey even when I don’t notice it at first.

Of course, there are days when my heart feels distracted, when my mind drifts away in prayer, or when doubts creep into the edges of my thoughts. But instead of letting those moments pull me down, I remind myself that Allah looks at my effort, not my perfection. Each return, each attempt, is part of the journey—and every return is loved.

“So remember Me; I will remember you. And be grateful to Me and do not deny Me.”
— Qur’an 2:152

This verse is a gentle anchor. It tells me that remembrance is a two-way bond—when I strive to remember Allah, He remembers me. And in that truth, I find both comfort and strength. My journey continues, not with perfection, but with presence.

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August 25, 2025 - The Long and Winding Road

The path to faith has never been a straight line for me. It is a winding road, filled with pauses, hesitations, and sudden bursts of clarity. Today, I find myself reflecting on the moments in between—the quiet intervals when nothing feels extraordinary, yet something subtle is shaping me.

I used to believe that faith was built only in great moments of revelation, but now I understand it’s also nurtured in the small, everyday choices: the whisper of a prayer before dawn, the patience to hold my tongue when anger tempts me, the quiet surrender of my worries into God’s hands. These little acts may seem fragile, but together they form the foundation of something unshakable.

There are still days when doubt creeps in, when the weight of my past feels too heavy to carry into the light. But I remind myself that Islam is not about perfection—it is about striving, about returning, again and again, no matter how many times I stumble. Allah’s mercy is greater than my flaws, and that truth gives me strength to rise each day with hope.

“Do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Truly, it is He who is the Most Forgiving, Most Merciful.”
— Qur’an 39:53

My journey is not finished—it never will be. But perhaps that is the beauty of it: faith is not a destination but a living, breathing relationship with the Divine. And today, I choose to walk forward, even if the steps are small.

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August 18, 2025 - A Heavy Heart

Today, my heart feels heavier than usual. Grief has a way of weaving itself into faith, testing its strength and stretching it to its limits. Losing someone dear—whether a family member, a friend, or even a beloved pet—leaves an emptiness that no words can truly fill.

Islam has taught me that loss is not the end, but a reminder. Allah says in the Qur’an: “Indeed we belong to Allah, and indeed to Him we will return” (2:156). Those words carry a quiet truth—every soul we love is only entrusted to us for a time. When Allah calls them back, it’s not cruelty; it’s part of His divine plan.

In my sadness, I’ve found comfort in knowing that the mercy of Allah extends beyond this life. Every tear, every ache, every whispered dua in the dark becomes a bridge between here and the Hereafter. I pray for reunions in Jannah, where no goodbyes exist and love is endless.

Grief doesn’t fade quickly. But with faith, it transforms. It becomes a gentle reminder of what truly matters—preparing for the day when I, too, will return to my Creator, and meeting those I’ve lost in the shade of His mercy.

May Allah grant peace to every grieving heart and reunite us with our loved ones in a place where sorrow will never touch us again. Peace be upon you.