My Journey to Islam
June 30, 2025 - Muraqabah—the awareness that He is always watching over me.
As I continue my journey in Islam, one concept that gently deepens my connection to Allah is muraqabah—the awareness that He is always watching over me. It’s not just a reminder of His presence; it’s the quiet unfolding of a relationship built on attentiveness, reverence, and intimacy. Muraqabah brings Allah near—not in distance, but in consciousness.
There’s a kind of serenity that comes from knowing I am never alone. When I walk through pain, He sees it. When I whisper a prayer only my soul can hear, He hears it. Muraqabah teaches me to move through the world not with fear, but with mindfulness, as if I am being gently watched by the One who knows me better than I know myself.
This awareness is not oppressive—it’s comforting. It doesn’t make me feel judged; it makes me feel held. It transforms my moments of solitude into sacred meetings. It turns simple acts into worship, because when I remember that Allah sees all, even the way I treat others becomes a reflection of my love for Him.
Muraqabah has changed the way I speak when no one’s around, the way I react when no one’s watching, the way I seek forgiveness before anyone notices I’ve faltered. It softens my ego and strengthens my sincerity.
There have been moments—especially in the silence of night—when I’ve cried not from fear, but from awe. The thought that Allah watches over me, forgives me, listens to me, and guides me even when I lose my way—that’s the sweetness of muraqabah.
This awareness isn’t meant to suffocate; it’s meant to awaken. It reminds me that nothing escapes His mercy, nothing is too small for His care, and nothing I do is ever unseen by the One who loves with the most perfect love.
May we all live with muraqabah—that blessed, beautiful knowing that we are always within the gaze of the Most Merciful.
Peace be upon you.