My Journey to Islam
June 9, 2025 - Hudnah—a truce, or inner ceasefire.
As I continue my journey in Islam, one concept that has recently stirred something deep within me is Hudnah—a truce, or inner ceasefire. It’s not a word I hear often, but the meaning has echoed through my soul. Hudnah is the quiet decision to make peace—within myself, with others, with my past. It is the space between struggle and serenity, when I choose not to fight everything I cannot change.
So much of life is spent wrestling—with regrets, expectations, grief, confusion. But Islam teaches that peace is not only a reward in the hereafter—it’s also a mercy we’re invited to seek right now. Hudnah is when I stop waging war against what has already happened, and begin the process of healing in Allah’s light.
One of the most personal lessons I’ve learned through Hudnah is that forgiveness often begins with me. There were days I thought I had to keep punishing myself to be sincere in my repentance. But Hudnah reminded me that Allah is Al-Ghaffar—The Constant Forgiver—and if He has pardoned me, who am I not to soften toward myself?
Hudnah has also transformed how I approach broken relationships. It’s not always about restoration—it’s about releasing resentment. I’ve learned to say, “I choose peace, not because I wasn’t hurt, but because I’m tired of bleeding over old wounds.” That’s Hudnah.
There was a moment—just after a long prayer—where I sat in stillness, and for the first time in a while, I didn’t feel at war with myself. I wasn’t trying to fix or prove or reach. I was just being. That was Hudnah—a divine moment of stillness that said, “You’re safe. Right here. Right now.”
As I reflect on this concept, I realize Hudnah is not weakness—it’s strength dressed in softness. It’s the strength to walk away from bitterness, to trust Allah’s justice, and to reclaim my heart from chaos.
May we all find Hudnah—a sacred pause, a gentle surrender, and the courage to let peace bloom where pain once lived.
Peace be upon you.